“Awareness is required for learning and change. The stronger the awareness, the greater the change.” —Lu Grey, Director of Bay Area Gestalt Institute
In experiencing the “Here & Now” of Gestalt Therapy on retreat last week for graduate school, I came to some stark realizations:
1. Unplugging from internet and telephone for 4 days does wonders for the soul (It took me a few days to fully surrender to this, and once I did I felt much more present).
2. I enjoy making art.
3. The unconscious sends powerful messages. We just have to do the work to understand them.
Our class was fortunate to have been Lu Grey’s last. At 78, she was like our cherished grandmother, watering the seeds of knowledge and awareness that we carry. For six to nine hours a day, in three hour chunks of time, she gently and expertly discussed this holistic, creative and active form of therapy, which is ultimately a way of experiencing life in the present moment. My two biggest takeaways from working with Lou:
–Cultivation of a spiritual practice diminishes the power that superego has over us.
–Drinking alcohol is not good for me.
At the beginning of the week, I was feeling terrible. I was scattered, and I had a few vivid dreams so intense that they initiated self-care of staying in bed one morning, causing me to miss class. I recorded the dreams, knowing that we would be doing dream work at some point during the retreat. August 15 came, and I volunteered myself to work with Lu for a class demonstration of experiencing the dream in the present state. She led me through being each part of my dream (the shower, me, the drain, the acid) and to have a conversation with the others. Shuttling my attention between my body and the conversation was truly hard work, especially with an audience. My unconscious was communicating that I do not have control over alcohol, and that in order to live a life free from the disgust that results from drinking, I am to abstain from it.
I feel comfortable with my decision to not drink.
I am in awe of this work.
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Daniel P. K. Ng
Await that sacred hour, where all in stillness lie,
Cease your aimless walking, with the angels, fly.
The spirit now its resting, retire those weary eyes,
Then listen to his arriving, The Lord is passing by.
“The Lord passed before Moses”
~ Exodus 34:6
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Proper portions of Greek yogurt, fruit, nut butter and steel cut oats, with a bit of water and whatever seasoning you’d like. This one has cinnamon.
All you need to do is measure each ingredient and mix in a jar before putting it in the fridge. While you sleep the oats absorb the liquid… in the morning you’ll have a stick-to-your-ribs meal that will keep you satisfied for hours!
I’m amazed to learn about the struggles of people who appear to have their lives in order. Emotional eating, compulsion, abuse, the list goes on. You know. We get by… sometimes never sharing with another person what we are challenged with every single day.
I’m sharing this in the hope that at least one person will feel less alone.
I struggle with so much, and what it comes down to is searching for happiness outside of myself.
I continuously overindulged myself with food and alcohol, numbing my feelings and avoiding getting help. I didn’t want people to think that I was “weird” — how I was perceived meant more to me than being true to myself. Unfortunately, the image that I portrayed was one of an angry, sloppy, drunk mess.
I once made sure to go home with the catered leftovers from a family celebration. That night, a friend and I ate every last creamy lobster ravioli, at least 5 servings each. That was AFTER the party, during which I had eaten a full meal. Another time I punched a girl in the face and then ran away, screaming out at her all of the negative things that I felt about myself.
Ohhh, the list is long of the mortifying, insensitive and downright hurtful things that I’ve done.
I was sick. Sick and tired of being sick and tired with myself and my decisions.
It wasn’t until I took RESPONSIBILITY that my life shifted.
I’m grateful for becoming a beachbody coach because it has forced me to look in the mirror and FACE myself. To look these hard things that I struggle with in the eye and work to change them!
Being grateful is a decision that we get to make: “Wear gratitude like a cloak, and it will feed all corners of your life” (Rumi).
You get to CHOOSE how you react to your life, to situations that you find yourself in. Your choices over time have compounded into your life now. Yup, every choice to harbor resentment, to shun forgiveness, to eat your problems as distraction has accumulated into your life! You can choose to be joyous, to see the silver lining, to be grateful for the struggles.
Be the hero of your own life! DECIDE to see your struggles as your strength. You alone are responsible for your own happiness. Period.
This is a picture of me before I began to tap into that guiding force inside of me. Before I took personal development seriously. Before I realized that being healthy was necessary.
I started with the 21 day fix for my sister’s wedding, and I continue with the exercise and portion control as a practice in self-discipline.
Sometimes I feel like a hypocrite, for touting healthy decisions and then drinking too much champagne, for wanting to give & receive love yet avoiding those who I care most about… But guess what? Nobody is perfect, especially not me! We are all a work in progress.
The question is, what are you progressing toward? What kind of person are you evolving yourself into?
The personal work that I do effects everyone that I come into contact with, and the same goes for you. We are all contributing to this collective consciousness, and we can raise it!
Step out of your comfort zone and choose to take responsibility. Be response-able: Claim your life!
These aren’t the apples that I grew up with… Have you ever seen such a thing?
I’m completely obsessed with pineapples.
For many centuries, all over the world, the pineapple has been a universal symbol of hospitality and welcome.
What they symbolize, the way they look, how they grow, what they do for my body, and most importantly… how they TASTE! OMG. Favorite. Fruit.
Recently I discovered these lovelies at Trader Joe’s, and I HIGHLY recommend them! Dried baby pineapples: SO sweet!
Did you know that it takes over two years for a pineapple plant to bear its first fruit?
What’s your favorite fruit?